So I saw Brandon yesterday I just ignored him…and Robby tells me that he said that he wants to talk to me every once in while and be friends…apparently he said hey heather how are you doing? And I didn’t hear him and just walked outside then he said to Robby if she doesn’t want to talk that’s fine. I was a douchebag to her anyways. She was the best thing that ever happened to me…REALLY?!?! REALLY?!?! NOW YOU REALIZE THIS?!?!….Men. -.- idk what to do. I’m kinda mad at myself for not hearing him and saying something. Well now I realize why he looked so nervous around me.
OMG I didn’t think that quitting smoking weed and drinking was going to be so hard! It’s only been like 4 days and I already want to cave and I’m trying soooo hard not to. I just feel so fucking lonely. I feel like I have no friends anymore and all this drama is killing me and I’ve been stuffing my face which makes me feel worse. I just want a relief and I cant. Ugh I feel so depressed. Just so much on my mind.
